Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Ravi's first day of Kindergarten

Talk about an emotional rollercoaster. Today was one of those days. Ravi went to his first day of school. I was excited for him, but at the same time was worried about the unknown. I wanted to protect him from anything negative that may come his way. After all, he is about half the size of most of his classmates. Realizing it is unrealistic to have a mother protecting you for all the days of your life. I put on my game face and smiled. I was determined to cheer him on and make him feel safe. This was the norm and I wanted him to feel good about school. It was outside his classroom when reality REALLY hit me. I stooped down and leaned into him. I realized this is it. I am stretching out my heart strings and will be leaving a third of my heart at school today. I kissed him on the cheek and said, "ok baby, I love you, have fun today." He looked up at me with a smile and said, "I love you too Momma, bye." Off he went into the classroom. I walked five steps and I felt warm tears falling under my sunglasses. As I drove home, I thought of him as a baby, all my favorite memories and then thought of little boy he is now. I smiled through my tears as well as laughed at myself. I am excited to gain even more memories throughout this precious time. But, I feel as though time is passing like sand in my hand. Too quickly to hang on to. All too bitter sweet. I swear I was staring at the clock all day and finally it was time to pick him up. I get there and hear. "Hi Momma." And just like that my heart was back in my chest. I felt complete again. During the ride home I heard about everything from recess, cafeteria food, and story time. I even was suprised with an arts and craft project. Oh, the many precious memories I am getting now. :-)


Rissy Roo said...

You made me cry...I dread that moment too. Glad your baby had a good start.

Chrissy and Jason said...

Thanks for the tearjerker! You are an amazing mother and he is going to be just fine!